Maltesers & Mumblings (A fresh start)

Hello Loves

So for all wondering whats happened to me & my blog, I've started blogging again, this one has been fantastic and I love it however I've started fresh.

If you would like to catch up with my blogposts then head over to:

maltesersandmumblings.wordpress.com

I love you all.

so for the final time.. 

go out and change the world.

Love Char xo

Goodbye.

Hello loves,

This decision has been incredibly hard for me to make & as I have finally come to this decision I think it is best. 

As you will know from my lack of recent posts I haven't been my best in the blogging game. I don't find the motivation to blog anymore like I used to. I don't know if this is just a phase or whether I have just fallen out of love with it.

I started blogging just over a year and a half ago & I adored it. The initial excitment was there for me. I couldn't wait to log on and speak to you guys. Now I don't have the same feeling. A lot is happening at the moment, I recently finished College & started a full time job. Although this doesn't seem like a lot the last thing I ever feel like doing is opening my laptop and writing a blog post.

I've been thinking about this for a long time & I know that a lot of you won't understand why I am stopping this. I understand that completely. I may just need a break from blogging. I thought about taking a break but I realised I no longer wish to come back to this blog. 

CharlieTee has allowed me to express myself how I wished to & I shall forever be thankful that I have had this little part of the internet to myself. I shall be keeping the domain name so I can always look back on these posts if I wish to reminisce. 

I can also understand that a lot of people will think I am being over-dramatic. This place has been my own & I feel incredibly emotional to leave a part of me behind. I feel however that this is right.

So as always, I encourage you to be the best version of you, that you can be.

Be kind. Be truthful. Be happy.

Go out and change the world

 

Love Charlotte x

2k15 cont.

Hello my loves! 

Am I the only one terrified that we are already in June?! Like we are genuinely half way through the year.. madness. So today I wanted to talk about how my 'new years resolutions' are going! I'm usually one to give them up as soon as I say that I will start them but this yeah I was determined.

1. Laugh - This was one that I set last year because of how miserable I had been at the start of college. I wanted this year to be positive & this year truthfully has! Although there has been moments where I wanted to tear my hair out with frustration (as per usual) the majority of the year so far has been extremely positive. I have definitely had some moments where I have been laughing till crying or nearly peeing myself... no really. Not my best moment but definitely one of the best!

2. Work hard - Something that actually comes naturally to me is when I put my mind to something I want it to get done and look good. Otherwise I get extremely frustrated with myself. I genuinely think I have worked as hard as I could have with coursework this year.

3. Revise - Something actually pretty foreign to me I have managed to revise for tests this year! It has actually put my mind at ease so much, if you are finding that you have a lack of motivation for studying go on tumblr and type in 'studyblr'. They are basically little cute pictures of people revising that make me jealous that they have their life in order enough to sit and revise, which makes me get into the swing of things to.

4. Excercise - Again I can hear my friends and family laughing at me using the dreaded word 'excercise' in a sentance. I usually hate excercise because it feels like work, like a chore. But when it's fun I have the time of my life and don't even think about the fact that I'm working out. I really want to get Charlotte from Geordie Shores work out DVD just because I love her attitude and allover demeanour so I feel like it would make me work harder.

5. Save money - Yeah no lets not talk about this one.... it didn't happen.

6. Make time to read more often - This is something I am genuinely good at. I love reading so much! Luckily lots of youtubers have bought out books this year so I have taken time to read them IMMENSLY. My fave at the moment is 'A work in progress' by Connor Franta. Although as soon as Dan & Phil's book comes out I can assure you that will be my new one <3

7. Stay Organised - Okay so this is an actual speciality of mine! I have to know whats going on and wether plans have changed and or cancelled. I'm not a very good spur of the moment kind of girl clearly but I love nothing more than writing lists and planning things.

8. Believe in myself - This one is usually a bit of a task for me.. but I'm getting there... slowly.. granted. But I am working in my self-confidence as much as I can. I have come a long way since last year.

9. Focus on the positive - Again something I sometimes find a bit tough at times but is becoming easier with time. It's so easy to focus on the negative however I am working on it.

10. BLOG MORE - So it was off to a good start... then not so much.... but I've started again! Whoo to new starts :)

So thats it for today my loves!

Leave a comment down below what new years resolutions you have failed or kept! Always looking for new challenges.

Until next time;

Go out and change the world.

Love Char xo

Bucket List.

Hello Loves, 

Recently I have massively got into creating Bucket Lists. I am a massive 'List' person; it just helps me to feel so organised. These are some of the things that I want to do in my life. Some are easier than others and some are absolute dreams of mine.

 I used to love my hair being long but it got really unhealthy and I wasn't happy with it. So I gave it the cut. Luckily my hair grows pretty quickly but in the mean time I'm trying to keep my hair in good condition.

This will come to no suprise to anyone who knows me irl. I dream of being able to play an instrument well & I fell in love with the sound of accoustic guitar a while back, so one day I will bite the bullet and get someone to teach me.









Truly I dream of going to any country abroad. However there is something so lovely about shopping abroad. They have a completely different style and it's fascinating to see. Shopping in Paris would be the cherry on the cake for me.









I've always said that I wanted to live by myself  before either getting married or getting a roomate. I don't exactly know why as I don't actually do being by myself very well at all as I can get quite scared easily. However I feel like there is something so exhilarating about an adventure like this.

 How cute would 'Rapunzel' be for a little golden retreiver?! Maybe thats just me but I kind of have a massive obsession with Disney as most of you will know. I want a Black Lab when I am older. 'Flynn Rider' is my fave male character and I think that is so fitting. Maybe I'm just being daft.. probably.

 I learnt French & German in GCSE but I was rubbish at both, I failed French but managed to pass German (HOW?!) although French was ironically my better language. I want to take up a language again as I loved learning something completely (quite literally) foreign to me.

 WHO DOESN'T WANT TO PLAY A VOICE IN A DISNEY MOVIE HOW COOL WOULD THAT BE!

 Like I've said before Disney is a massive part of my life... sad but true. If I feel sad then I'll sit down and put on Tangled or Hercules (My two faves) I want to go to DisneyWorld more than anything & my family and friends are more than aware as I do not shut up about it.

 I've only been on a plane twice... TWICE. For someone that wants to travel the world I haven't done a very good job. The idea of riding first class is gorgeous... unlikely to happen unless I marry rich or suddenly become very very succesful however a girl can yearn.

 Again.... there is a re-occuring theme with me. America, I just want to see America so so much. I have watched vlogs where youtubers go to universtal studios and it looks... well.... magical.

 I have this dream of being at a wedding with a boyfriend and me catching the brides bouquet and scaring the living daylights out of him. I just think it would absolutely hilarious!

This is the dream. I currently only have 3 which kind of sucks but the next on my list is 'Beauty and the Beast' due to me being obsessed with it recently. One day I shall get there!

Leave a comment below on what your bucket list is! Maybe we can share a few ideas together.

 Also I have a new Instagram account just for my blog! I didn't want to get my personal one mixed up with blog updates, so for more updates follow me on Instagram at: @charlietee98

Feel free to leave me a comment or Direct Message me :)

Go out and change the world.

Love Char xo

May.

Hello my loves, 

I realised that it was the end of May already, so decided to sit down whilst I had some time and type up my May faves!

MAKEUP.

Stila 'Kitten' eyeshadow: I believe I bought this around my last birthday, and just never got round to actually using it. This colour is a lovely light champagne colour that can be blended out to give a sheer effect (which is how I wear it), used as a highlight, or used as a block colour. Either way this colour is definitely one that I reccomend putting into your makeup bag!

L'Oreal Paris infallible matte foundation: For forever I have been obsessed with the MAC studio sculpt foundation & was looking for a cheaper drugstore version. I wanted something that was high coverage, matte & long wearing. L'Oreal ticked two of those three boxes for me. This foundation is a lovely matte formula with medium-high coverage meaning I layer this to get the desired coverage for my face. The only thing this is not is long wearing (which is the most important aspect) I use this everyday and have done solidly for about a month now. The foundation can last through college hours & maybe push to church in the evenings (during the week) if I touch up a little where needed and add some powder. However after my trip up to London I was not so impressed. I was on the train home and noticed in a reflection how much the foundation had shifted and how I looked incredibly shiny. All in all as an everyday foundation I love it. Not so much for special occasions.

Models Own 'Lilac Sheen' nail polish: Again this is something I had bought over a year ago but had just found by chance at the bottom of my nail polish box (there are quite a few and I always skip over the purple section) but I wanted something that would contrast with the tan I was attempting (ATTEMPTING) to get. I love this colour as to me it is my 'white' colour. I don't like actual white on my nails for fear it will look like Tipex. Which it doesn't on anyone else I know! However this is just inside my comfort zone to try and pull off and boy do I love pastel colours on my nails!

SCENT.

Mac 'Turquatic' perfume: I have honestly wanted this perfume for so long and although I still have not bought it, it is definitely one of my 'summer products' that I want. This is a lovely fresh scent featuring anemone, lotus, orris and Corsican blue cedar. I love scents that remind me of a certain time in my life. I want this one to remind me of the Summer of 2015.

Maybelline 'Peach kiss' babylips: I used this all the time when I last went to Norway so this scent has a lot of good memories for me. I bought another one this year; purely just to sniff when I feel a little down so I can remember how much I loved visiting Norway last year!

MOMENT.

London: So the other day I visited London & went to the new Lush store on Oxford Street! I don't want to talk about it too much as I would love to put it into a seperate blog post, if that is something you would like to read then leave a comment in the bar below this post!

Les Miserables: My uncle kindly got me tickets to see Les Mis in London this month, as I had been obsessing over going so much! IT WAS AMAZING! I saw it in theatre before watching it on film & although I love watching the film (over and over again) the theatre production will always have a very special place in my heart.

SONG.

Xo ~ The Eden Project.

Good Kisser ~ Usher.

On my own ~ Les Mis.

BLOGGER/ YOUTUBER.

 Elle Fowler (youtube) : Okay so Elle is like the first person I ever subscribed to on Youtube back in the day. I stopped watching her for a while as she wasn't making videos due to the fact that she had broken her back. Now I am addicted again! Her planner videos are AMAZING <3

Kingsley (youtube) : Kingsley's videos constantly have me in tears of laughter. His comments & jokes literally make my life you have no idea; if you prefer a sarcastic tone to a hilarious video then Kingsley is the person to subscribe to.

How was your May? Leave a comment down below :)

Go out and change the world.
Love Char xo

Body Confidence.

Hello my loves!

Gosh it has been a whole month since I last wrote a blog post.. I may have accidently broken my laptop again; but soon I will have a new one, it's difficult to write at college due to exams at the moment so blogposts may be sparse until I finish.

This aside I wanted to talk about Summer & body confidence.

Last Summer was a struggle for me, I didn't feel cute in what I was wearing; or confident enough to show any skin.. Although I did, I remember hating every single minute of it, I felt insecure and that people were judging and talking about me. Here is my problem. I am a 16 year old girl, who has a large chest, large stomach & large thighs. I am a size 16. Now I am very confident in some clothes. If they skim over the stomach area or are high necked then I don't feel as bad. However Summer is always a problem for me. 

Now I know that everyone are different sizes, shapes & weights. I think that that is fantastic that two people are not the same. I also know that everyone has their insecurities about themselves. I think I am just more vocal about mine; in hope that someone may relate to it and realise they are not alone.

Something I see around Tumblr a lot is a post that says this; ' If you want a bikini body, then put a bikini on your body'. This suddenly gave me such a massive confidence boost because it sounded so simple. So I went shopping for bikinis and... well? I hated how I looked in every single one. I do not have the 'perfect' bikini body according to the media & to me, that is fine. Looking at all the bikinis that I tried on I realised that I was more confident in wearing my red and white spotty one piece (Infact I kind of love it). Yes my friends make fun of me for not wearing a bikini, but it doesn't matter. Chances are; I feel a lot more confident than everyone else because I know I don't have to worry about how I look in a bikini when I am not wearing one. 

I recently wore shorts for the first time in two years. Somebody once made a nasty comment to me about my legs when I was 15 and I lost all my confidence and never wanted to wear shorts again. It was an extremely hot day and the only other option I had at the time was Jeans (Since we were camping). I then put back on my jeans and continued to feel awful emotionally and physically for the rest of the day. So when yesterday I wore shorts I was so scared to even leave the house (which I did after a lot of looking in the mirror and telling myself I could do it). I thought people would notice the way my thighs wobbled or the fact that my legs weren't toned or tanned. I tried not to care and after about 15 minutes of self-loathing. I didn't. That was a massive step for me, but it encouraged me to wear whatever I deemed as appropriate and not care what others thought of how it looked on me. If I am happy with myself, well then screw everyone else.

So you know that thing that you don't think you can pull off? Or the thing that you're too scared to wear because you don't want to be judged. Do it anyway. Do it for you, and I promise that it doesn't matter what other people think. Afterall they're all too busy worrying about themselves, to make any nasty comments about you.

Go out, look gorgeous; and change the world.

Love Char xo

Dear Dad.

Hi Dad,

I haven't written to you in a while. Things are okay at the moment, I'm about to start my exams and I feel totally ready! I feel like after the downfall that was GCSES last year I'm ready to prove something. I'm not sure as to whom because I'm being 100% supported by everyone.

As part of my photography coursework I went to visit Willingale with Grandma. I wish I had gotten the courage to go sooner as it really is a beautiful area & sometimes I do miss the serenity that comes with it. I went to visit your grave only to find out that you do not have a gravestone so I have no way of telling. There could be a million and one reasons as to why you don't have one. I wish you did though. Mummy tells me that you're not there anymore and whilst I know you're not and that you are in heaven its easier to mourn that way I feel. The day you died is coming up soon and I don't know how I am going to react. I can't imagine it being simple.

Paul and Andrew and fine to my knowledge. I catch up with Andy now and again but haven't really heard from Paul since your funeral. Perhaps I should be making more of an effort.

This aside the weather is actually awful today. There is something about the rain that puts everyone into such a bad mood but I don't mind it that much. I tend to stick my earphones in & listen to show tunes or disney. I swear Disney makes everything okay.

Until I write again, please never forget that I love you 

Charlotte x